[quote]Originally posted by stupider...likeafox:
That sounds like a good idea for a movie. Maybe make it 40 nights:
heh Never saw that movie.
Here's the update: I'm through, I'm done. This is too hard. It's bullshit, really. I was talking to my other friends today and they were like, "Why?" I told them to gain some perspective and hopefully even more respect of the act by depriving myself of it. Again they asked, "Why?" And I honestly couldn't come up with a good enough answer. They said, "Mike, you have the rest of your life to not get laid, why the hell are you doing that now, WILLFULLY, at the prime of your life? What does this prove? As a matter of fact, WHO told you you should do this?" And I answered "<name withheld to protect the innocent>". They asked, "Does he EVER get laid? Ever?" And the answer was a feeble no, he does not. They said, "So you're going to take sex advice from someone who doesn't. Rrriiiiight." I was humbled.
The cool thing about this is, they aren't shallow people by any sense of the word; they've actually helped me quite a bit deal with some of my own personal demons. Not through actually discussing them directly, but through their words and how they approach their own problems, etc.
So, I'm calling it quits. This is just too hard, too much bullshit. I'm so stressed out, even my boss's boss noticed it. My back is like a wooden plank, it's all tight and knotted from the stress. The problem is not that I didn't have sex or any sexual act for five days, the problem is I WILLFULLY went out of my way to not do anything so it was ALWAYS on my mind! I told myself I couldn't do it so of course that's all I thought about, and THAT made it worse, you know?
Anyways, I've already called my ex (the one who sent me the pictures) and we're gonna go to a sex shop tomorrow, and after that, it's just going to be me, her, and all the toys we pick up. If y'all hear an explosion coming from RI, that was probably me. Thanks for listening to my rant and not being judgemental. It's cool to know I have my own little AI therapy group; you guys rock!