Originally Posted by Yutaka
Busting one's ass to obtain rank and insignia, and to be paid in second generation stuff, I am beginning to have some serious doubts as I began to speak openly of what is going on. To go busking on the streets just to purchase this stuff for her was crazy enough as it is. Now for me to wash dishes on granville street every week just to have her essence is beginning to sound crazy. I don't even know why I am doing this. I feel my life is being regulated, and when I have time to myself, I find I am always broke ass.
My friend you are on the path. Now, the path to what, well, you will find out. As for drinking your piss!!! There may be better ways to clean yourself out. Try some serious internal work-outs like a serious taichi, bagua or shing-yi. You'll get more out of it and not have to go the drink the piss route! Have fun while you are at it.