Am I A Serial Killer Or Just Growing Up
OK so I'm 34 and never been in a long-term relationship, though I have had the fortune of knowing the lovely opposite sex in enough detail. (I'm male, generally hetero the past several years).
Something freaky has been happening, though I think children are an impossible choice because of this world and the overburdened earth [adoption would be the only sensible option if I wanted kids, and they would have to be less than 5 years old so as to ensure adequate bonding, even then I've gotta be in tip top financial, physical and mental health], recently when I meet someone whom I think is, "hmm... not bad" suddenly I have flashes of imagining them, not necessarily naked straight away, but in a wedding dress!
Either this is a natural male biological/psychological process, or I'm a serial killer that will soon have victims who are brides.
All joking aside, what's going on?
To me marriage never seemed 100% for the rest of our lives, because if we live to 90 at least on average by, say, 2060, then surely human relationships may not have a single "cycle" that fulfills that criteria.
But the weird thing is that marriage-divorce-marriage-divorce never seems to be a reasonable solution to the above, polygamy maybe, but then again surely there's a better solution?
I've been in the past 100% commitment phobic but this weird marriage ideation has taken me by surprise recently.