I am losing my focus
sigh......in the last few months and even now I have been frustrating myself big time.
Have been asking myself what exactly I want to do since 1998.....and now still haven't had a solid clue.
Coming from the multi-media background .....I am so used to do many things at the same time. But when comes to "what I have to focus" I am in hell.
Seeing some of my friends having success on their focused areas I start to think why the hell I am still in shit......
Then I look back to my "skills" and am quite surprised I am only a Jack-of-all-trades on surface........when I am seriously thinking about looking for jobs in some *very* specific areas I am just a master-of-none.
Video Editing / Effects - Only up to the prosumer level
3D - Only limited to some texturing and some "modeling"
Animation - Totally stinks
Programming / Authoring - Level 1
Design related areas like Graphics Design, Web works are the only areas that I can at least compete with other amatueres............ but I am getting tired of this and not many work in this area now anyway....
So all in all.......I am wasting my time......Afraid I am going to waste my whole life doing stupid things
I need to focus....but just have no fu(king clue on how.....
Have been asking myself what exactly I want to do since 1998.....and now still haven't had a solid clue.
Coming from the multi-media background .....I am so used to do many things at the same time. But when comes to "what I have to focus" I am in hell.
Seeing some of my friends having success on their focused areas I start to think why the hell I am still in shit......
Then I look back to my "skills" and am quite surprised I am only a Jack-of-all-trades on surface........when I am seriously thinking about looking for jobs in some *very* specific areas I am just a master-of-none.
Video Editing / Effects - Only up to the prosumer level
3D - Only limited to some texturing and some "modeling"
Animation - Totally stinks
Programming / Authoring - Level 1
Design related areas like Graphics Design, Web works are the only areas that I can at least compete with other amatueres............ but I am getting tired of this and not many work in this area now anyway....
So all in all.......I am wasting my time......Afraid I am going to waste my whole life doing stupid things
I need to focus....but just have no fu(king clue on how.....
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What Color Is Your Parachute 2003: A Practical Manual for Job-Hunters and Career Changers
It may help you find the focus you seem to want and find a path to get there.
You know everyone here love's your stuff so you have a big cheering section here at AI. So don't lose heart!
I was lucky. I found focus early on. Followed my nose and wound up with a career I really like.
what's that....
Cool....
Huh?
What was I talking about?
Nick
I say focus on 3d, cuz i think thats what you want to do (and my big favorite). Besides everything else you described has to do with making a 3d animated film. 3D modeling/animation, video editing / effects, graphics design skills, and some programing skills.
And there is nothing wrong with one guy making a 3d short on his own, thats the point, that you have a movie studio in your computer.
I know your frustration and I feal like i have been there.
i ask you to think about what is it that you would like to accomplish in life as opposed to what you want to do.
here's to making a difference
approach small firms who can't afford to pay several specialists
become a one-stop shop to do production jobs where you can outbid firms struggling with the above
introductory to intermediate education (my advice)
no need to be the superguru for the geeks (requires continual upgrades to stay expert), but helping others to get to prosumer competency may be within your skill set. educational temperment and instructor diploma certification may be required, but it's another option.
build a good reel of your best work and submit it to a few schools and design firms. ask for direction (rather than an outright job) and many will provide useful referrals or tips on how you might explore your path
and don't forget the meditation.
seek within yourself, grasshopper.
- you when you want to do a precise thing and nothing else
- life, you get a specific job, and you become specialised in a special matter
Anyway as you pointed out, it's important to be focus in your area, because there is two many amators able to de many basic things. My brother is like you (but older) he is also a jack of all trades. He has a lot of problems to find a job. He did a formation in web-designing, but it did not bring him works. I wish that things will become better for him.
Originally posted by Leonis
sigh......in the last few months and even now I have been frustrating myself big time.
Have been asking myself what exactly I want to do since 1998.....and now still haven't had a solid clue.
Coming from the multi-media background .....I am so used to do many things at the same time. But when comes to "what I have to focus" I am in hell.
Seeing some of my friends having success on their focused areas I start to think why the hell I am still in shit......
Then I look back to my "skills" and am quite surprised I am only a Jack-of-all-trades on surface........when I am seriously thinking about looking for jobs in some *very* specific areas I am just a master-of-none.
Video Editing / Effects - Only up to the prosumer level
3D - Only limited to some texturing and some "modeling"
Animation - Totally stinks
Programming / Authoring - Level 1
Design related areas like Graphics Design, Web works are the only areas that I can at least compete with other amatueres............ but I am getting tired of this and not many work in this area now anyway....
So all in all.......I am wasting my time......Afraid I am going to waste my whole life doing stupid things
I need to focus....but just have no fu(king clue on how.....
Suicide is the only answer.
Originally posted by BR
Suicide is the only answer.
shut up ****ing ****
Originally posted by BR
Suicide is the only answer.
You are a real friend BR
Originally posted by Powerdoc
You are a real friend BR
Sarcasm is the only answer. OK, I guess my warped sense of humor isn't welcome here. *shuffles off to another thread*
Good luck!
I have been going through the same situation. But it surprises me that you, being younger and more experienced hasn't found your niche. I guess it'll take time. But keep the focus on your true skills and upgrade on the weaknesses. I don't think your skills are lost. It's the market, really slow right now...
I've been going through this book and there are some interesting opportunities in it. I'm only looking for freelance myself. I am actually trying to get back into IKEA right now. They are opening a new store here in Philly this Fall and I am working pert time on weekends to get some experience and exposure there. It's not easy, but they're impressed with my portfolio and with the work I am doing there///we'll see.
Good luck Leonis. It is tough.
What I have done is gotten a job with an employer who needs someone at the level that I am. They don't need a whiz-bang 3D modeler, or even an official Avid Editor. I can edit on the Avid well enough, and they have an Avid, so it works out. By no means, however, would I consider myself an "Avid Editor"
I guess the message of the post is: Get a job with someone who needs you at the level you're at in any of those skills.
One other thing, I've seen first hand with editing that it has a lot more to do with working the back of the room than working the front of the room. In other words, you could have all the skill in the world, but if you don't have a good personality and don't get on well with clients you're not going to work.
Of course, the only work I've been able to find has little do to with EE. . .